A Love Letter to My Passport

My Precious

NZ Passport

My ticket to ride

How I’ve missed you.

At times I’ve felt lost without you. Somehow knowing that you are not in the little passport folder or in the maroon folder I keep all our most precious items, amongst medical records from the children’s births, and the certificates of birth, divorce and marriage, has left me bereft. Inside there is even love note letters the girls have written to me: To mum you are beautiful just like this flower, but unlike this flower you are beautiful inside and out…

If only.

My passport photo of me doesn’t speak of incomparable beauty. Rather, it shows a teeth gritted not-smile (you’re not allowed to smile in passport photos any longer) snapped in the curtained box at the local supermarket. I hate having my photo taken at the best of times, and that was definately NOT the best of times.

I look tired in that photo. Worn out from fighting for a place to be. For a place to belong. And then last December I bundled you up with every identity document I own and sent you away to faceless bureaucrats at the UKBA.

It’s been a long three months. Through the snow and the cold, and the rain and the tears, I’ve waited, hoping, not altogether patiently.

Will we be moving soon because we cannot afford to try again for the sodding Indefinate Leave to Remain? Do I need to organise the pets’ rabies shots which need to be sorted six months before we leave, sell the house, look at universities Down Under for Son?

A drum, a drum..

Sod Macbeth, when will my passport come?

A mantra I tapped inside my head for three long months.

I’ve missed you passport. You are my ticket to ride and without you I cannot travel on in my life. I cannot travel. Full-stop.

If I have learnt anything in this life of mine it’s that life is for travelling through. It’s not about the destination, it really is about the journey. I long to tell those travel tales, for storytelling is one part honouring the past in memories, one part honouring the present (in living in the present), and one third dreaming of the furture.

And now, you are back!

Thank God you are back, all stamps in place, all visas renewed, extended, fulfilled.

Is it ridiculous to be tearful with gratitude?


NB/ Thanks to my Englishman, all my family, friends, blogging mates and Twitter pals for your support. And thanks to the Right Hon. Sir George Young, our local MP who I am certain helped hasten my our visa applications. Thank you! Now, where shall I send the Vegemite?


'A Love Letter to My Passport' has 27 comments

  1. March 7, 2012 @ 12:21 pm Sally

    Fabulous news, well done. 


    • March 7, 2012 @ 12:27 pm vegemitevix

      Thanks Sally, it’s a huge relief. It’s quite tricky being a travel blogger that cannot travel. ;-p


  2. March 7, 2012 @ 12:21 pm London City Mum

    Oh hoooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
    So, so, so pleased for you!

    LCM xxxxxxxxxx


    • March 7, 2012 @ 12:28 pm vegemitevix

      I know. I’m almost speechless. Feel like driving to Calais this weekend because I can!


  3. March 7, 2012 @ 12:22 pm Trish @ Mum's Gone to

    Great news! It must have been awful not knowing what was happening and how it might affect your future.

    So where are you going to go, now that you can?


    • March 7, 2012 @ 12:32 pm vegemitevix

      Well I’ve got trips to Cyprus, Italy, France and hopefully New York lined up. Fingers crossed. So, so relieved Trish. x


  4. March 7, 2012 @ 12:27 pm veryboredincatalunya

    Yay, congratulations.  Thank goodness that is all over and you can now concentrate on other things.  xx


    • March 7, 2012 @ 12:33 pm vegemitevix

      Thank you! I might even be able to come over and see you in Spain!


  5. March 7, 2012 @ 12:47 pm Cate P

    Yay you. Big relief. x


    • March 8, 2012 @ 10:02 am vegemitevix

       It is such a relief Cate, thanks for your support. x


  6. March 7, 2012 @ 12:53 pm Steve

    About bloody time too!


    • March 8, 2012 @ 10:03 am vegemitevix

      Thanks Steve, was beginning to wonder if they were going to chuck us out!


  7. March 7, 2012 @ 6:46 pm Ca4ole

    Great news!  Finally.


  8. March 8, 2012 @ 1:27 am Sarah (Catching the Magic) x

    Whoop! Whoop! So, so relieved and happy for you! Enjoy having your freedom to roam back in your possession x


    • March 8, 2012 @ 10:03 am vegemitevix

      It’s funny how much your identity documents mean to you when you’re living the expat life isn’t it!?


  9. March 8, 2012 @ 6:25 am Claudia McFie

    great news.


  10. March 8, 2012 @ 5:31 pm Bluebirdsunshine

    Oh that’s fantastic! I’m elated for you and it’s not even my application. Anyone who has been through that hellish process of having their future decided by unknown people using unknown methods has my utter empathy! Hope you are busy celebrating, and kissing your passport 🙂 


    • March 19, 2012 @ 9:56 am vegemitevix

      I am! And even better I’m using it next week to fly to Cyprus. Yay!


  11. March 9, 2012 @ 11:04 pm Tam

    Ohhhhh god !!! Look out she’s back and she got a passport to ride …!!! Happy travell.


    • March 19, 2012 @ 9:56 am vegemitevix

      Oh be very afraid, be very, very afraid. LOL!


  12. March 11, 2012 @ 9:47 pm Midlifesinglemum

    See. They said three months and you got it in three months. And in time for all that March/April travelling? Congratualtions xxx!


  13. March 12, 2012 @ 11:33 am ourhouseinquercy

    Well done!! Having just been through a similar wait for our carte sejour here in France, I feel your pain.


    • March 19, 2012 @ 9:57 am vegemitevix

      Celebrations all round then! Well done you. Where are you based in France, I’m hoping to pop across later this year… now that I have my passport n all. x


  14. March 12, 2012 @ 12:47 pm ChaoticallyMe

    yay!  that’s awesome news 🙂  So glad the waiting is over and you can relax again/


    • March 19, 2012 @ 9:58 am vegemitevix

      It is wonderful and now I can actually use it, which I’m doing (with almost indecent haste) next week when I fly to Cyprus.


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